Conversation with my God

One day I sat down for a chat with God,
I asked God,"God, come and talk to me."
Summons went out after many a year.
God came and sat down to talk to me.
I tried being friendly;asked him what He'd been upto.
He smiled nonchalantly, said."The usual, taking care of things you know."
Smiling sarcastically I said,"Oh ok. The usual stuff."
Lashing out like a thunderous wave, "Then why dont you take care of me?"
"But my child,havent I always looked after you?",he asked me.
Oh really! Have you now?
Then tell me where were You when they dismantled my body from soul.
I said what the heck,they can have my body ,never my soul.
God is looking and will take care of it all.
But You didnt respond;let it happen again,and yet again.
Where were You when I was lying on my bed, motionless, soundless, for hours on end?
Not fear;just hatred of myself and them against whom I couldnt defend.
Where were You when I was being driven crazy,over the top?
Driving madly,not wanting to stop.
Just waiting for each day to come to the end.
Couldnt see nothing much beyond.
Where were You when I was walking hazy in a dream-like state.
Wanting life to end,knowing my nemesis,waiting for my Fate.
And then where were You when those things were happening to him?
You knew I would love him,yet You catered to that beast's whim.
You didnt take of me,You didnt take care of him.
And now You expect me to keep mum?
God said,"But thats the way it was meant to be,
You were to never find perfection in all eternity."
I said,"Thank You God for your kind endeavour and listening to my plea.
But it seems like even You didnt really understand me.
He is always perfect to me,always will be.
But that doesnt excuse you from your Duty."
You gave me life,you gave me love for a few days.
My heart saw a million different dreams spreading out in so many ways.
Thanking You God,I thanked my stars.
At last the end to covered mindless wars.
And then You pulled him out of my reach.
You'd done it again;my trust you did breach.
I dont know what to do;just wanting to scream.
They say You cant kill God;He lives on,He is supreme.
But God today I tell You this and more.
If I cant be with him,I'll kill You for sure.
You are my God,I've loved You like Hell.
But I love him more than You;than words can ever tell.
So if you come between me and him.
I promise You'll never be my God again.
I will lose my Father,I will lose my soul.
But I will not,never,lose again a part of my whole.
You've seen my worship,You've seen my respect.
Now it's time You get to see a brand new aspect.
God said,"Give it Time child,all will be well.
Only Time will show the Future,Time will tell."
I crossed my arms and leaned back and said:
"I'm waiting God but remember Time's dues will be paid."


Lost in Wishful Eternity

Sitting across the table, looking at your eyes.

With joy my heart dances like the green glowing fire-flies.

Kisses so sweet that melts my soul.

Such that it flies to become a part of your whole.

Hold my hand and we’ll dance the night away.

Crazy steps but our hearts beat perfect to the rhythm, sway.

Hold my hand and I’ll be free.

Lost in my own wishful eternity.

In our dreams we shall take flight on your white white wings.

Tick-tock tick-tock, the pendulum of time swings.

Sitting in my dark room,all alone.

Thinking of the times we talked on the phone.

Sharing our memories, dark and blue.

Leisurely hours and how time flew.

Remember the times we walked down the lane.

Holding hands, me tripping now and then.

Cupid struck,it was time to celebrate.

With that we also had to contend with Fate.

Without you my life has become gloomy and dull.

Missing you,waiting for the messenger to sing, any signal.

They say you’ve gone far away.

To a far-off place, a sandy bay.

Look into my heart, you reside therein.

Waiting for the time for life to begin.

Love came and swept me away in a passionate torrent.

Like a dry brown leaf I’m dancing in the mad current.

Till then I’m happy in this worldly insanity.

Want nothing more than to be lost in my wishful eternity.


Let's Return to Childhood....

When I see the bright gleam of your eyes,
I see the sunlight between the trees;the wind sighs.
I see your smile and fall in love all over again.
Like the first time I had walking down the lane.
And every time I hold your hand and smile back at you.
I know I've found a joy known to the very few.
And everytime you kiss my lips and say,"It's Okay!"
I want to kiss you back and say,"I'm always there."
In love with you I've returned to a beautiful place.
A place I'd thought I'd lost, where the soft moonlight kissed my face.
Where I'd felt love and warmth and joy.
Where I knew I wasn't going to be used like a toy.
Twisting my fingers around your curl.
Playing with your hair, waiting for love to unfurl.
Unfurl it did and I returned to my childhood
With you I knew Love was no falsehood.
Love is about giving;giving all you have and more.
Expecting nothing, just loving for sure.
With you I could run free once more.
Like a lil girl in skirts at age four.
I loved not your body but your pure white soul.
I love every inch of you, every part of your whole.
This fragile heart now rests in your hands.
With all its emotions, like of a rainbow,its bands.
Break it, cuddle it or trample it underneath your foot.
Just don't throw it away but display it as your loot.
Even if you break my heart, it's emotions wont die.
It'll love you still,for sure,it'll tell not one lie.
Till then I live in my beautiful innocence revived for as long as I can.
Seeing you grow from a boy to a man.
Rest assured I'm eternally there for you.
Just gimme a signal and I'll do all I can possibly do.
And know that wherever I am, whatever I do.
A part of my heart,my sweet darling,is always full of you.
I'm no angel though I've wanted to be.
I've hurt many people by just being me.
But you touched my heart as you passed me by.
Gave me wings with which I could fly !!
And now that I'm flying without wings,wanting time to stall.
Promise me that you'll catch me before I begin to fall...
But thanks, my sweetheart, for returning my childhood to me.
Forgetting the troubles and the worries,just wanting to be!
Loving and sharing unconditionally in all its entirety.......


"Fragile Heart"

If u want my heart
U have 2 promise not 2 tear it apart
'Cause my heart
Has been hurt a lot
And it always seems
Love is not sweet, like in dreams
Something falls through
But I don't want that 2 happen 2 me and u

So be
Careful, warning
Fragile heart

Last Saturday
We ate dinner at your parents' place
Last Saturday, u said
How u feel will not go away
Well, all the fishes in the sea
Could not be happier than me

So be
Careful, warning
Fragile heart

Only fools believe that
Nothing changes, nothing leaves
But I need 2 believe that we at least
Will have some dignity
'Cause everything changes
Nothing stays the same
But that's no excuse 2 be casual
Or 2 place the blame
U have 2 be careful with me

So be
Careful, warning
Fragile heart

picked it up 4rm sumwhr...identify wit a lot.....


Sitting Across the Table.

Sitting across the table,
Looking at those eyes,
I realize how much I love you,
I profoundly thank God for giving, to me, you.

Sitting across the table,
Looking at those eyes,
I see hurt,
I see pain,
I want to reach out ,
Hold you tight in my arms...
I want to plant a kiss on your cheek...
To wipe away your tears
And steal all the hurt away.......

Sitting across the table
Looking at those sad eyes
I realize I've contributed
Contributed to the hurt, the pain
I faltered, I did hurt you

Sitting across the table
Looking at those eyes
I sign a pact with myself
I vow to give you love
To take all the pain away
To make your eyes shine like they did one sunny sunny day

Sitting across the table
Looking at those eyes
I now know
What I have for you is pure
I want to protect you
I just want to make you happy
And I know its love that I feel..
All my doubts I lay to rest today..
And dream about whats to be tommorow..