Deal

Lifeless time, time eternal
How can you be so heartless
You have seen all that ever was and will be
Yet you have never felt anything
Oh I wish I could be as hard as you
Then again I am happy I am soft
For I can feel pain and sadness
All the feelings driven by hell
But I can also feel love and joy
And I can be happy
When you live in closed walls
You donot feel the cold wind
Or the whiping rain
But you donot also see the sun
Neither feel its warmth
Donot smell the flowers
I want to be free from those closed walls
And if this be the price then I am willing
Time, kind sir, I may need your help
But do you realize you do need mine
Time, kind sir, lets make a deal
I will show you love
All I want from you is some of your precious presence
I will show you the sun the flowers all that is to be felt
Take you out of that closed four walls
I will show you a lot
Just if you would give some of your precious presence
To My Princess and me if you would
Time, kind sir, give some of your time

Insanity

So this is what it feels like.
To be lonely in a crowd; to be left alone.
When people even don’t know you are around.
That you are screaming inside, but they cant hear the sound...
Eternal loneliness finished with a few moments of joy;
And then separate loneliness again.
I'm here, you are there...
Know you are there, waiting for me
But cant see you with these eyes....
Missing you at all possible times..
people, so many of them,
but they still don’t understand, do they now?
How you and me fit and were meant to be...
doesn’t matter anyways, does it now?
You are there waiting for me I know.
But I ain’t good at this waiting game either you know.
Always I come up against this black dark wall .
The pounding in my head says I’m going insane.
Have no reason either to combat this bane.
I never felt loneliness before in its true unabashed self.
That's coz I never knew there were so many emotions to delve.
I never knew loneliness before coz I thought there wasn’t anyone,
and now I feel double, whatever I’m feeling, someone else is too...
I’m going insane thinking about how to take care of you...
I’ve cherished you as a child of my heart,
I’ve never wanted to let you apart.
Even if it’s momentary, this separation is making me go insane.
Knowing it'll give you and me the same amount of pain.
The shooting star has burnt out and bitten the dust.
Lost in the brown dusty earth, a first.
But in that meeting with the earth the star was not finished.
Rather the shooting star found it’s seeked resting place.
Found a close enclave, no more does the shooting star have to roam the space.
If this is my insanity so be it, it’s better than roaming and frustration.
This is, I bet, the whole world’s best sensation.
If this entails going insane, then so be it.
I was saved from being eternally lit.
The eternal agony of looking and not finding.
Hating the world at large, waiting for the ending.
If this is going insane, then so be it....

White Night Fantasy

Enchantress came to me
And said, meet me at the lake tonight

I hunt this song to the white
Through the shroud of snow I saw paradise
Peace, no more lies

Crestfallen soul
Rest for this night
Love is here
Right here under my wings

I dream of wolves
With them I run
For me she lengthened the night
I am home
I am in peace

Crestfallen soul
Rest for this night
Love is here
Right here under my wings

a beautiful song,I dont know by whom,dont care either,as long as the words convey it all.....

TRAPPED

Trapped in this body I no longer want to stay.

Away from these physicalities, isn’t there any other way?

Where you walk but there are no footprints in the sand.

Where I can hold your soul without holding your hand.

I can then fly, go wherever I wanted ever to go.

Any faraway land, any imaginary shore.

All that the mind may have heard in poem and lore.

Where you wont be missed, you can be wherever you wanted to be.

You don’t feel helpless,

You don’t have to open your heart every time to show your true feelings.

For then it would be clear, all.

Where there is no ridicule after a fall.

Coz then everyone of us will fly.

Free from each other, and yet bound, we even don’t have to try.

Try to be perfect , try to be free.

Choose and decide, which is dearer to me.

And then prove my choice for everyone to see.

For the moment all alone is all I want to be.

Coz in the end, nothing matters.

What you do, what the world infers.

The soul is always here, aint it?

Then why don’t we all free it from the body in which it

Stays trapped……

To a place:

Where there is no love, no hate.

There are no feelings to be controlled by fate.

Where you are dead but yet not so.

Where you can just be, go with the flow.

Why hasn’t such a place been discovered as yet?

Or is it too expensive for it, to me, be let.

I want to break free, tear all these binds.

Kill these tears before my sight it blinds.

I don’t wanna stay trapped in this body anymore.

Any other place is better than this and that’s for sure.

For You

There are a thousand people thousand a way
Because all these people have to have their say

They tell us this wont work and that is wrong
But who told them what is right all along

And did they ever stand where we do
Did they take my eyes to look at you

Did they ever check my heartbeat
Did they ever dare to take my seat

Rite now I am under the butterfly's sway
I will destroy all who get in our way

To break us a lot of them will try
And when they do they will die

I shall die without you being with me
So I shall fight for you with my life you see

And then I saw the moon.....

I hope this poem answers all your queries,
I’m sorry I wasn’t thinking, I had many worries.
I knew you were busy and I needed time alone.
To feel like what it would be like with you gone.
Sitting in the dark waiting for a ride.
I saw the car flying high up in the air.
And I thought how fate can be,
The ride I was waiting for was never meant to be.
Of how we can only plan and think,
How fate can defeat us after bringing us to the brink.
And then I went for the ride high above in the air.
With the wind making waves in my lonely brown hair.
And then I looked up and saw the moon,
And I knew someday I’ll see you soon.
It doesn’t really matter whether I’m really with you.
At least I’ve found you and want to be there to start life anew.
But this heart refuses to understand, cry it must for it loves too much.
But life asks for an answer to every question, a test as such….
And the question being asked is whether I can love you.
Is there enough strength to carry me through the years not so few?
I was doubting myself, I knew very well.
My heart was tolling an unheard troubling knell.
And then I looked up and saw the moon.
And I knew someday I’ll see you soon.
I don’t know if that’ll be in this world or in the next.
I don’t even know if there is a world after this one.
And I don’t know even there if I’ll be allowed to be with you there.
And then I looked up at the moon.
And I knew someday I’ll be with you someday soon.And even if you aren’t , I know someone’s out there.
With whom my world I would like to share.
And that is a thought which would carry me through the years.Soothe my aching heart, rest all my fears.
I gave you a promise, not to shed a tear.
I’m sorry I broke that today, but to my heart I always keep it near.
Many a time I’ve let the tears dry up in my eye.
My heart ached to let them run, but I never did cry.
I looked dazed and confused but I love you I know.
All these years I have to live with only memories to show.
The years will change you and me beyond the other’s comprehension.
The society will get to me is my greatest tension.
We’ll be seeing things new in faraway places.
The years will even change how we looked at each other’s faces.
But I can always look up at the moon..
And hear my innermost thought’s tune.
I hope to hear the heartbeat that beats in your chest.
As I pray and hope for the best.
But I can always look up at the moon.
As it looks upon my secret wish to see you soon.
At least it knows how much I’ll love you till the very end.
I look at the moon and remember once all the love you send,
The moon knows how I lived my life, lived my time.
I don’t even have to send it all to it through a silly rhyme.
The moon knows how I loved a boy with all my soul.
How it feels like to be the part of a whole.
And how it feels to be disjointed, lost in time and space.
How it feels like that I’ll never be able to see his dear face.
But then I look at the moon and see its sweet glow.
And I think that the wind must there too blow.
The moon I see, the wind that kisses me.
Must be there too , with thee.
What more do I need than the knowledge of a soul,
Me being a part of the wonderful whole.

Living Flames

The fire that burns within
To comprehend they cant begin

Consumed in the flames I move
Dont care if they disaprove

Like embers we shall fly
From the flames to the sky

Who shall stop us? Who are they?
Who dares get in this inferno's way?

Lets turn the dark night into day
Lets burn all that is in our way

All this because the strength I know
With this strength we can set it aglow

Without you what would be left of me
Nothing but leftover ashes and derbis

Burn me destroy me dont let me survive
All the while I exist make me know I live

Suddenly

Today I had a taste of the terrible fear
Of the fear that you may suddenly dissapear

Today I was there like I am everyday
You had suddenly vanished without a say

I didnt know why and I didnt know where
Standing in the crowd I didnt shed a tear

But oh if you could see what was inside me
It was a firestorm that wouldnt let me be

I sang the soulfull tune hoping that you hear
While I waited each moment seemed like a year

Then you answered back much to my relief
You had gone flying alone much to my grief

Why where and what I was doing you knew very well
You had to go away alone so fast you couldnt tell

But today I had a taste of the terrible fear
Of the fear that you may suddenly dissapear

Today it has put thoughts unkind
Thoughts very unkind in my mind

I dont know why did you suddenly decide
To dissapear suddenly and go on a ride

I felt so helpless felt so weak
Life without you its all so bleak

All I say is till you are with me
Please dont dissapear so suddenly

Smile

There is that faint music that I can hear
While I try to sleep it spies into my ear

Whatever it says I dont even care to know
Because all I can think of rite now is you

Whatever time that I have in this limit
In its entirety to you I want to commit

When I can be with you I shall hold you
When I cannot I shall have Deja vu

Somewhere in my mind you shall always find
Thoughts of you and me flying in the wind

After now again in my life's december
I think you know what I will remember

These memories will be all I have you see
So why dont they be of you smiling at me

If there is somereason that hinders your joy
Just tell me what it is and it I shall destroy

Consider this an ernest request
For you to smile at me my princess