18/06/2007

Consolation


I look up at the clouds in the sky
So bright, so white, all so wonderful.
The sea gulls flying pointing to the sea
With its water sparkling like diamonds strewn on a field.
The smell of fresh air coming from the open horizon
As it stretches to grab what is infinity.
Feel the bright warm sunlight on my back
And turn around to look at the mountain peak
Covered with golden snow melting off the sun.
Mother nature hugs me from all around
In her bright green dress polka-dotted with reds, blues, yellows
And all the colors in the world, even those unnamed
And what is this that falls onto the ground?
A drop of water, is it rain?
More seem to fall, one on my finger, its warm.
I taste it, it's salty.
Mother nature hugs me tighter, but its not even consolation.

The sun is gone, the sky turns black.
No more do i hear the sound of birds.
A sudden shock of thunder i hear somewhere
A flash of lightning's teeth follows in its wake.
My heart filled with sadness, my hands clenched they shake.

Drops of ice cold numbness pour on me.
This time it is the pouring shower
But it doesn't numb away the pain inside
One more flash, it lights up the horizon
What is that at a distance?
I run, so fast that it feels like flying
Is it you?

I cant clearly see but I go and hold tight
Who else would come for me but you.
Holding on dearly with all my might
You kiss away with your warm lips, the brine from my eyes
And I see, it is you, I soar up high
Above the dark clouds, above the black sky
With you in my arms, I have wings to fly
With you in my arms, I have joy in my heart
Once I hold you tight we shall never be apart

The brine dries up, only a smile remains
All because you are there in my arms.
I want you, i need you, i cant live without you.
Finally rid of a life without you
With childish joy, we shall find happiness anew.

Up above the world so high
Like two doves we shall fly.

14/06/2007

Walking through the woods...a ballad


Walking through the woods, holding hands.
Looking at the rainbows with its many colored bands.
Seeing such dreams that only lovers can see.
A future bright and sweet and a child running about in glee.
So many dreams about our home.
Where the heart rests after a long roam.
Walking through the woods and kissing lightly.
Making our way through life with a step sprightly.
As darkness descends we both get scared.
I try to hold onto your grasp but alas, despaired.
Shrubs so thick and mangly, deep is the bloody cut.
But they are nothing compared to the one in my heart.
I cant see you my love, I cant find you.
Im searching through the night dark and blue.
Where are you? My heart cries out.
But the resounding silence leaves me without a doubt.
You aint there.
You aint near anywhere.
I see the dawn breaking through the leaves.
And like the red drops my heart grieves.
Im searching for you, just answer me once.
I wont take much of your time, just kiss you once.
And then I see a sight that much joy to me brings.
Such that I skip and my heart begins to sing.
You are right there standing at the edge of the wood.
Waiting for me in the same spot as long as you could.
I wrap my fingers around you quick.
And my heart says good-bye to the fears so toxic.
I’d thought you say at the cross-roads “Goodbye my dear.
This is where our path ends I fear.
I go my own way, you go yours.
And forget the dreamy future years.”
I’ve got you close to my heart once again.
Thank you dear God for ridding me of my fiery pain.
Hold my hand and kiss me once.
Let me believe in my ballad’s joyance.

[This poems a love song based on a dream I had but am not very confident about the ending that I saw...]

21/05/2007

Death in Paradise


It feels so nice to know you are in control.
It's nicer to know when you are about to fall.

Choosing the place and time when to go.
I'll choose to die in paradise where the soft winds blow.
This your wonderful paradise can be anywhere you want it to be.
On the top of the highest hill-top where you can shout with glee.

Where you feel like on the top of the world as the sun's raw rays kiss.
Spread your arms out and at last fly to your eternal bliss.
Or on the cliff as the waves lash the rocks below.

As you let your life's words on the soaked paper flow.
Scatter them to the winds and acquaint with your paradise.
As the sea-gulls above fill the skies with their cries.

Or in the blue-green sea play with the fish.
Tell the sea-horses your most unspeakable wish.

Die in paradise where you can have peace at last.
Free from your human frailties in the past.

But my spirit wont go out quietly in the night.

It wont go down without giving a good fight.
But wouldn't it be paradise if I could die by your side?

27/04/2007

MURDEROUS LOVE

My love is suffocating you, aint it?

Holding you tight, should I let go a bit?

I’m loving so much that its killing you.

Holding too tight, you cant breathe, till you are blue.

But I’m sorry, I never meant it that way,

It’s just that I want to be with you whether night or day.

Walk with you on roads dappled with sunlight.

Hold your hand as we walk through the darkest hour of the night.

But I suppose I’m smothering you, holding too tight.

If that’s what you want then ,then have your way.

If you are happy that way then do go away.

I won’t stop you, and I certainly wont cry.

But to be lil closer to you this heart shall always try.

But see that my love doesn’t kill you, doesn’t suffocate.

Tell me when I choke you, till your last breath don’t wait.

Murderous desire, with love-filled eyes.

Thou have taken away the free bird from the clear blue skies.

Hateful love thou must die.

Cry like a river, weep, cry.

Cut yourself up and let the blood flow.

For this folly thy penance must show.

Intentions don’t matter, thou murderous emotion.

Sit back and relax, love shouldn’t become an obsession.

Thou have no faith, so damned insecure.

For this cursed cancer there is no cure.

Don’t want this precious leaf to disappear in life’s turbulent stream.

To catch it thou struggle, thou cry, thou scream.

But oh foolish heart, take note, beware.

That the river isn’t created by your own tears, take care.

Murderous love, thou must die; but you do as you would deem fit.

With those three last words I will now take my exit.

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07/04/2007

Fearless

Cruel Unforeseen Void
You have taken from me
And I have let you all this time
I did not have reason and just rhymed the pain away
But now i live to my name and stand up against you
You are powerful i agree
But be afraid i have a power greater now
You may say think i am weak i am a mere mortal
All these years i hated
And i let you win i let you take away
I wanted and i gave it all away
I can greed i can hate i can let them all eat away
And so i did and let you win
But you forget
I can love
Now i tell you be afraid
Be afraid for i am human
And as human i love
You are no more my master
Now i know i have won even before battle
I am happy, my tears kissed away
The rain on my head wiped with soft hands
I dont need flowers
Her hair is more fragnant than a thousand roses
My tears dont fall like rain on hard earth anymore
Now i know, i know how to fly
I know you have lost
So i tell you come
Let us work together
I will show you how wonderful it is to be human
To be mortal
Come sir fate in your shapeless form
And i shall show you humanity
All i beg is fight no more
And let me hold my princess in peace

01/04/2007

Porcelain Man

Porcelain man porcelain man
You stupid fool to your death you ran

All this time with your heart in black
You had it all what did you lack

For all these years you knew very well
That the only place for you would be in hell

You knew your curse you knew your fate
You could have delayed your entrance to hells gate

Porcelain man porcelain man
You stupid fool to your death you ran

When you began you knew in your mind
Your master's hand your end would find

You knew very well you were bound to him
You had life eternal doing his sins

It had been so for years on end
Why did you so suddenly break the trend

Porcelain man porcelain man
You stupid fool to your death you ran

In that little flower what did you note
That she stuck in your coat

In that kiss what did you seek
That she gave on your perfect cheek

Why in the end could you not do
And go against her as you were supposed to

Porcelain man porcelain man
You stupid fool to your death you ran

But in the end you are not a fool
For you broke out of your curse's rule

Today you are forever free
Even from the gates of hell you see

The little girl that you did save
Cried to bring you to heaven on its wave

Porcelain man porcelain man
I believe for you this was god's plan